My stress levels have been pretty high lately. It shows in my lack of motivation getting into the studio consistently. I am creating, but slowly. I have also switch to small pieces. Currently I'm sticking to 12" x 12". This is a good and manageable size for me right now. It also means I spend a lot less time hand stitching binding!
I wish life were always easy and calm, but it's not. So, I will have to adapt and work around what the universe throws at me, and try to continue finding my way as an artist.
***I've been fighting off a cold or something, and fell asleep at this point. My waking viewpoint was altered.***
Before I fell asleep, I received the official email rejection from the publisher I had submitted with. (So many lessons learned besides that which I am going to talk about.) I was feeling really badly about myself, my art, my everything (that's how it feels when you're an artist isn't it?) - felt like maybe it was a sign that I'm kidding myself. That I'm not an artist.
When I woke up, I was thinking about a friend. I was putting out good thoughts/vibes for them, and that I hope everything works out. It was one of those, "Wow, I have it really good" moments.
For the moment, I am going to try my best to be content with the fact that those closest to me like and encourage my art. I am going to try and make myself keep going, and build the art career that I want, even though I don't really know how to do it right now. Even if I don't succeed, I know those closest to me that love me, will still be proud of me because I tried.
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